Loss

"God knows I tried, I fuckin' did - something must have distracted me, I don't know what fer chrissakes - but something fucking must have; I turned around and ya were gone - fuck 'n shit 'n bollocks - just like that, in a fuckin' instant. I took my eye off the fucking ball for a second - and I lost ya." (Memoirs of a Disillusioned Solipsist, part III.)